I Don't Care

Its all over now,
Fame, money, love, care,
Promises, trust, faith, vow,
Now I exist, nowhere.
Like the dried leaves rustle,
Then a spark cause fire,
Like the dead heart hustle,
Then a arrow make a vire.
I walked those a thousand like miles,
I creeped for everything good,
I struggled for my life to affiles,
Gathering those fake ornaments of coralwood.
You all just show support for a purpose,
Now, keep that deep inside your pockets,
Cuz your heart is too small for those heavy dose,
Or what u can do is, make a time being docket.
'Can you just tell what's wrong with you,
And why all of your poetry are so blue?'
(Ohh here you come again,
Really curious? Or just wanna hangout with my pain)
'blue poetry! The whole world is blue buddy,
Wanna make it red? Wanna celebrate or be bloody'
'I am not getting you, what are you saying,
What season are you through? Haying?'
'Ok, so you wanna know, what's there,
Let me recite, where my soul and pain cohere,
I feel like, burning inside,
Just wanna listen to shouts, by the brook side,
Everyone is playing me,
Surprised? Say gee,
I walk the silence stairs,
I peek the cruel stares,
Everyone has got a justification,
But I don't wanna listen to any of them,
Don't ask why? Wait. Let me tell
Ya, because it justifies them, and to rest its "Go To Hell",
Reason, cruelty and greed everywhere,
And money, they want in a hypersphere,
Sometimes I just feel to kill someone,
But I don't wanna outgrow Hitler, and be in lonesome,
Like tear them out, cut their flesh,
Drink their blood, and roar, bash,
There is a storm inside my head,
Don't compell me share my life. Its dread,
Everyone one is rushing,
But you know where do life rush? (sushing),
To death. The extreme joy,
Have you ever tasted it boy?
Its really calm, beautiful and fun,
Don't believe? Then why do whosoever dies forget to return?
You all will die some day,
That day, all of your "Life" will go away,
Its so great, it come same to all,
Be you take yourselves as to be brave, intelligent, great or tall,
But why humans turned the way they are,
Are you down there? Or I've came too far?
The bright souls are sleeping as dark slaves,
It'll all end up in the nature's graves,
So, now I don't care,
Any relation, religion, love or affair,
...'
'You're really gone,
By brain, not any muscle or bone,
Can I help you, in any way?
Ok not blue or red. How about grey?'
'ohh, you wanna help me,
What will you offer, tell me,
Cheap sex, red wine,
Or dark poison? Well, I don't mind,
Set me on fire, fry,
Beat me with blades, make me cry,
Poison will help, else,
If you want me to depulse,
Listen, do this for me,
Start living, don't yell as gimme,
Remove all these boundaries,
Religions, communities, race, gender, places, beliefs or countries,
Discuss ideas, not people,
Life is a ball, keep it on dribble,
Keep going on, make it worth living,
Stop taking, develope habit of giving,
Heaven is a place on earth with you,
Tell me if its not just true,
Learn to sacrife, don't worry for loss,
There no other destination then death. Make a toss!
Live it the way its meant to be,
Don't spend it, don't be crazy,
Or do whatever you want,
I don't wanna speak up, to be upfront,
Let me breath with rain,
Let me dance with pain,
Let me cry on what I've gained,
Let me enjoy, counting what I've stained,
Let me sit aside,
Watch you all hide,
Let me grawl,
Let me see love crawl,
Let me lie restless,
Let me drive reckless,
Let me tear this fake dress,
Let me break this heart necklace,
Let me set fire to the world,
This, which spin, twirl,
Let me love the disaster,
Let me bring death a bit faster,
You are still here? Go!
There stands the life, row'.

Thank You, Cruel World

'white lips, pale face,
Breathing in snow flakes',
Ed you describes me well,
This world, am living in, this hell,
These pictures, on the past-wall,
Beautiful now? Not at all,
Those memories, those smiles I had,
'you are my angel', my dad,
Turned black by the world so bad,
Sadly, now the angel is dead,
It was just an another beautiful morrow,
What did it gave? Pain, injustice, grief and sorrow!
Off the fans, dim the lights, shut the doors,
I don't want be out anymore,
Don't even stand by,and dare you to knock,
If you do, be ready for the alpenstock,
Just let me get away,
From what? Those murmurs and affray,
I don't like this sunlight,
Okay now! Hold me tight,
Else I will fall,
And give me a stiff cowl,
I don't trust these smiles you wear anymore,
You, you, you, and you all, what do you count it as? Your score?!
Somebody please call my dad,
For the sake of humanity, if you even had,
I don't feel safe anywhere now,
What are you talking about? That false vow?!
Ohh! Here dad. Come fast,
Make it up, before this body last,
"ya, doll what's the matter,
Stop crying, control this stammer, and utter,
Okay! Okay! Okay! Enough hugs,
What's this, louden this chugs"
I don't wanna say anything,
Is even there something left for? No nothing!
"dad! I wanted to say... That."
"okay! Speak it up. Don't be a bad hat"
What should I utter,
Yes what? These clutter?
Let these scratches shout,
Tell him, what's this all about,
There he goes, like me, numb,
I shout,"those shameless, brutal, beasts, those crumb"
"how?!", with those tears and forehead scar,
Then I recites him the worst story so far,
"don't let this out dear, don't"
I have to nodd, "yes, I won't!"
"you've to get married, don't get unacceptable"
Look who decides it. Those bloody amortizable,
He gets out. Marriage?! Hell no.!
And the reason?! Unacceptable. Ohh!
It just pass like that,
Wham, bam, and what? Guess. Splat,
It doesn't get booked,
Thanks to the society out, crooked,
Ya that f#<{!^g society,
What did it gave? This half paralysed body and anxiety,
You, outside, who always brag about standards and justice,
Save the world. Go. Apply a poultice,
Where did it drowned now. Lost it somewhere?
No? I know. Yes? Why are you arear,
Gently, pick up those heavy papers, the book, the cases,
And do one thing, please. Roll it and shove it up your @$$#$,
Now I don't believe you, anyone,
I say, there are always strings attached, to everyone,
Someone please stand up and fight back,
No one? Ok. Let me cry, paint this picture and put it in my rack,
I don't live now, I just survive,
Hopes, dreams? No. No more acclive,
I breath, it stales,
I climb, it fails,
You be proud, what are you worried about,
I guarantee, no one, not even myself will shout,
You roam, free, have fun,
I guarantee, no one, not even myself will listen,
Because, even I I will ask to,
"its your fault", they'll alto,
They'll listen, and pay attention,
When I commit suicide? I know its an ademption,
You know what? I don't care,
Let there be a social warfare,
Let me shout, am baked,
Let me die, I am girl who was raped.

Heart-Break

Its raining out,alkaline
With a heat flowing, upside down,
Some floods, washing out hearts,
With the brain playing darts,
A little fog in the eyes,
And a little pain, on the bed sides,
The arms numb,
Some of the breath storms,
Taking a silent perspiration shape
Yes! It's a heart Break.
Ok its better it to be talked 'bout,
Let me whisper what my heart shout,
It's not that am not happy,
No! But its better now, not to sound creepy,
You better go, live,
It's not a big deal, all you shook, is just my belief,
It's just a stomp, hard and heart one,
It's gone, its all done,
You know,those days, how time used to fly,
And now, the same slowed down it's pace, as I started to cry.
Wait! Cry! No, no, don't misinterpret,
It's just a photograph threat,
The life photograph threat,
That our pain, grief, regret, remorse, happiness create.
It was just yesterday,
Yes when the time was all gay,
When my bike seat got your habitual,
It just turned out an incident, not even auditual,
Now, I'll not remember those times,
The glory, the mistake and happy times,
The free birds of Jove,
Because that's just the glory of love,
"You never get one you want to have always,
But you crap out, to those who actually want you"
I am happy that you settled down,
Finally found someone to take to the ball, with your red gown,
I pray, he cares for you as I did,
Then, I can say, its really, splendid,
I hope, he loves you as I do,
Because such portions of the graph don't have a undo,
I guess, he give you things,
No matter, steal or brings,
Which I didn't give to you,
That sugar and the Chou,
I believe, your dreams are finally gonna be true,
Thank god, because, with me, they might had end up just a part of the queue,
Dear friend, why are you still so worried,
You are one day going to be his bride,
Still worried! Ok, I have a life-hack,
You live, freely, fearless, I'll always be there to get your back.
Ok now, I guess you should leave.
Stop, listen!
I know I'll not be the most special person in your life,
Nor I want to be,
But I expect, you to remember this face,
And wave a hand to me,
And if someone says my name,
You smile and say, 'Hey! That's my friend'
Don't forget me, baby,
It's just a cycle,
"Sometimes it last in love,
And sometimes, its just hurts and stay"
You find him,
I'll search, again, someone like you.
I'll still not remember the ake,
Cuz its not a heart break,
No its its not a heart break,
Oh my god! Yes! It's a heart break.

The Fade-Pink Evenings